maybe i'll catch fire

I just got told I was the cat's pajamas. Oh boy.

( sketchbook peek )

http://media.joerogan.net/gallery/d/992-2/Joe_Rogan_Explains_Life.mp3

You Are Sunny and Inspiring

When You Are Comfortable or in a Social Setting: You are quite quirky, and you enjoy doing things your own way. You are optimistic, and you've always got a good idea brewing. People find you to be positive and uplifting. You make people feel good about themselves. When You Are At Your Best: You are a determined and responsible. You strive for success, and you know what it takes to get things done. People find you to be trustworthy and a good leader. You treat people well, and they benefit from your wisdom.

Norepinephrine? I'm soaking in it!

I'M FAKE I'M I'M FAKE. hey guys. i don't care, these probably break a ton of rules, and are going to get linked around but look at this fakeness:




laughing at how RIDICULOUS this ALL is. I WIN, AND YOU LOSE. GOODBYE.

do you even know who LARRY RUDOLPH is?
http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=124642111






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yes. i reallly am. and no. i dont talk to all of my friends...pretty much non of em actually
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From: Erica
Date: Jan 16, 2009 11:54 AM



hey... you're really messaging me right now? cool. do you talk to all of your friends?
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From: Larry Rudolph
Date: Jan 16, 2009 12:53 PM


hey...

i think i want to get these. i don't know though. i can't decide. usually they would be about $100 a pair but e-bay is awesome, and thanks to christina for finding them for me!  i might be able to afford them since they were on e-bay :) they're so cute. i just wish i could try them on... should i get something swirly like that or just plugs? i'm at a 6... which isn't very big, but i can stil work with it.

remember when you got those really nice plugs, cass? with the pretty diamondey crystal stone things going all around? i don't remember your colors but i remember you got some, as a treat for yourself. were they worth the money? because i saw them while hunting around and they are awesome looking, too bad they are SO expensive? i haven't found out what i would have to pay for what i would want but i thought i'd get your testimonial :)




sick of these captive rings. so UGLY. it's time for them to go since my stretchyness has healed. now onto search for the right jewelry. plugs, or something organic and swirly? i don't know. :(

for the past few days i've had these weird chest pains. i don't know how to explain them, at all. i hate going to the doctor, absolutely hate it, and on the other hand,i'm kind of not excited to understand what is wrong with me, if there is something. i'm hoping there's not anything wrong. i hope it's just nonsense. but i am still really worried. i promise that if things don't improve, i will go see a doctor. it's probably just stress. but i have been resting a bunch, and sleeping a lot... i think that would be a good thing? anyway, i've been having lots of crazy dreams. i had a dream that i had a baby... and loved it. jon was happy too. weird. i am not having a baby, but it was just such a vivid dream, and so crazy!
because that's not what i'm wanting at all to happen or anything.
i'm awfully sleepy, kindof want to paint, and need to unfrazzle my hair. it's a mess.

okay. that's all. will keep you updated :/

some things will never be different.






finallllyyy, got some new pictures.

got a new camera today :)


this is my new babe.


i put some pictures up on myspace. i dunno, shameless self promotion?
i'm thinkin so.

howeveeerrrr i'm just very excited to have a camera that's new and so awesome. maybe a little intimidating though. at first. :)
i can't sleep, tomorrow is thanksgiving and i dont want it to be because the holidays and my nerves don't agree
i dunno
i'm just not gonna sleep the best cuz of it i guess?

i dunno. i need to start taking more vitamins. that's all i want to say for now. bye guysss. happy thanksgiving. i have tissue hanging out of my nose because it won't stop, it just won't.
:( sad nose.

i am now 21 years old. i am still alive. hell yea.

my birthday was nice. i actually didn't spend my birthday getting wasted... i went out to a few places but not just to drink. it was hard to turn down all the free shots, i'm okay with it though because of jon's birthday gift to me. :) lots of smiley faces for this one...


it's a canon g10 powershot with 14 megapixels. holy woah. the best point and shoot camera out there, pretty much. it's the closest thing to an SLR, and most people... like myself... practice with this before making the big decision to purchase an actual SLR.

jonathan and i have taken a few good shots so far, and i'm super excited to have something so nice be mine. especially something that will benefit me in the future. and something like this that will give me something to do. he also got me some new clothes! two new pair of skinny jeanz and two t-shirts and a sweet little shirtjacket. 


i stayed up all night yesterday night, and finally yesterday at like 3pm, i fell asleep. i woke up just a little while ago. i am recovering from a wee bit of birthday adderall fun as well. i think all that sleep might have taken care of it though. i shouldn't call it sleep when it moreso resembles a slight coma.

i want to post the pictures we've taken so far. and i definitely will in a bit, maybe after this dead arm thing stops. weird???
but yea work was lucky enough to have someone cover for me today since it's the day after my 21st birthday! :)
i'm super lucky and kindof want to take advantage of being lazy. i don't get to be lazy anymore cuz... working full time. dumb. most thing i hate is that it takes up all my fucking time and i have no time to have a life or do anything else but relax from work stress and from being tired from working.

i'm gonna go smoke mad bowls and eat some subway after that. delicious fun.

pictures coming later! (if you wanna cheat, they're on my myspace.) http://myspace.com/erikah
if you wanna leave me myspace cmntz i would adore it...
xoxo
-e.

i'm so irritated. i get the hiccups more often than anyone should, ever. it's really miserable and i can't stand it. they hurt, they even make me nauseated and they make me so incredibly frustrated. and trust me, i've tried every trick there is. there's no getting rid of them, once they've started, they will last for about an hour. and when i get them once in a day, i'm sure to get them 3-4 times after that.
people will laugh and comment on it, and think it's funny when i explain how miserable i am because of them. they'll think it's silly or something.
it's one of the worst feelings ever.
i really really wish they would go away...
and never come back.
i can't handle it much longer.
and i'm totally being driven absolutely nuts...
:/

i feel like being really honest about all of my feelings lately towards a lot of people and things. this is a very positive thing, and all of these new feelings are incredibly positive and inspiring in so many different aspects. it feels good to start on this road of being in touch with my heart and listening to it. because let's face it, i've really been having trouble actually listening to my heart. one of my personal goals lately to self improve has been to learn how to listen to my heart the right way and what to do with what i feel. since i have been more in touch, i've found how full of love for people i am but the thing is, i'm afraid i haven't shown it enough, it's really just too bad and i am crossing my fingers that it's not too late. i simply do not desire to be one of those people that falls into the habit of holding everything in and being too afraid to show how they feel, in fear of what other people might think or say. i can't worry about that because what i feel is really important to me and i don't want to refrain from showing it anymore. all of our hearts deserve to be listened to very carefully, i don't care who you are. it's the truth.


it's just surprising how out of touch with yourself you can become if you're not careful. i just want to see some change in how people show their feelings, and see some change in how people, including myself, have allowed fear to force them to bottle some very important things up inside.


you only get the pleasure and experience of life one time, and if you don't say how you feel or don't say what's on your mind you're going to feel a little less whole in the long run.


stop ignoring your hearts and really listen to them, you'd be surprised what your heart could be telling you.

i'm in denver, at the airport. my flight to atlanta was supposed to leave a few hours ago. i won't be in florida until tomorrow afternoon, and tonight i'm staying the night in atlanta. i just want to get on the plane. there were a bunch of delays because of lightening, i think that's what that the problem was. i'm glad i'm going finally. but i hate delays :(

i confess that i'm addicted to....

reading my horoscope!

i have to check it every day or else i'm sure i'll go nutz.

comment on this entry if you don't want to be deleted from my journal. honestly i only want comments from people who aren't crazy judgemental and take things too seriously. its a livejournal, for it to be taken too seriously would be a waste of energy. if you get what i'm saying, let me know.   

do you remember yourself, as a kid, writing really elaborate crazy stories about imaginative whatnots? i was thinking about this today. i remember i once wrote a little "book" about where horses came from. haha. i wonder if i could sit down and actually construct something like that at this age. something weird like that. its so sad that as we grow up, our imaginations just sort of... in a sense.... diminish.  lets stay young forever! please.

i'm not consistent in being expressive, but i'm hoping that will change with the new year.