maybe i'll catch fire

I really want to reach 300 sales before the New Year, so please tell your hot fat friends to check out my items! I also make bags and guy items:
http://www.etsy.com/shop/platipuses

I am offering 16% off this weekend [Till Monday!] when you put "16%" in the Notes to Seller. So, if you've ever wanted anything, please get it now. :D thanks!

14 sales away!

xo.plats

Do any of you feel like you have to try *extra* hard in order to prove to everyone that you're not just some socially awkward nobody? Is anyone here a perfectionist?

Gave it some thought, and I feel like I try way too hard with everything I do to get everyone's approval. But, because of my "need" to prove myself, I end up fucking up instead. Trying too hard exhausts me and doesn't enable me to think clearly a lot of the time. And when I know I can't do something perfectly, I don't even try to do it. And, of course, that screws me over as well...

I know I don't need anyone's validation, but sometimes, I just can help feeling like I have to prove my worth...

Do any of you that are on SSRIs have lucid dreams?

Ever since I started taking Paxil my dreams have just become ridiculous. I've always remembered a lot of my dreams since I was small, but this is the first time I've been able to control my dreams. Also I dream a lot that I'm flying, or am a bird.

Nightmares seem really common for me now, unfortunately. Last night I had a dream where - long story short, a friend's soul got trapped in some kind of rusty car part. I could hear him breathing, panicked, but he couldn't talk. He was just.. a car part. Trapped, forever. I couldn't figure out how to get him out. It haunted me for the rest of the day.

Have you had any like, CRAZY dreams? Sometimes when I realize I'm dreaming, I intentionally see how far my brain can go, and I can focus in and count like, leaves and see individual flower petals and ripples in water crazy detail like that. It's seriously as real as the real world, and that scares me!

granted, this is not recreational, but does anyone have any experience with trazadone? this is the first time i've been prescribed anything but birth control or antibiotics, and as i'm battling anxiety, i really wonder if this anti-depressant is the right drug for me. all my doctor has to say is it will help me sleep (it has), and the only references to it being used as an anti-anxiety med run along the lines of 'may also be used as an anti-anxiety med' as an afterthought in any related articles.

thanks ahead of time for any info!

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the scans are crap because they're so dimensional; what do you think?

I feel like I'm just waiting to snap out of it and everything will be fine with me

either that or I'm broken and they discontinued the design after they saw how badly the floor model did

So I guess this is a re-introduction of sort. I'm 29, recently unemployed, and while I've never been formally diagnosed with anything since childhood I definitely have all sort of issues with social situations . . . especially lately, since my recent unemployment has caused me to have to go out and actually interact with other people in order to seek a paycheck.

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So I've wanted to post something about this for a long time, and now is the chance!

I am thankful for losing weight. I didn't realize how bad I had gotten until I was looking through my Ebay folder a few days ago. I have lost over 30lbs, maybe more like 40, I only started keeping track in April. But, you can look for yourself:

Before:

Sept. 2008

After:

Nov. 2009

so, that's exciting and nice. :]

I'm thankful that I haven't failed out of pharmacy school. I'm thankful for my education and future career. I thankful that I have no STD's, preexisting medical conditions, or deformities. I'm thankful that I am a woman living in a post-industrial western society and can do whatever the hell I want, whenever I want, and don't have to cover my head and face and worry that some insane fuck will throw acid on me if I make eye contact on the street. I'm thankful that I have no credit cards, and thus no credit card debt. I'm thankful that I have enough food to eat on a daily basis, plumbing, and warm clothes that I dare say are pretty stylin'. Finally, I am thankful for family and friends who love me. Those who do not love me, fuck off.

I really want to reach 300 sales before the New Year, so please tell your hot fat friends to check out my items! I also make bags and guy items:
http://www.etsy.com/shop/platipuses

I am offering 16% off Thurs-Fri when you put "16%" in the Notes to Seller. So, if you've ever wanted anything, please get it now. :D thanks!

15 sales away!

xo.plats

Thanksgiving, to me, is a time to recognize Abundance—to stop complaining about perceived lack or limitation, to stop wishing to be or look a different way, and really truly appreciate what's right here in front of us.

In the world of beauty, this means pausing in the tireless pursuit of perfection to give thanks for everything that makes us who we are...including the bumps, lumps, frizz, freckles and flaws that we might lament the rest of the year.

And of course, it can't hurt to give thanks for the extra-special products that help boost us from fetching to fabulous and remind us why we bother in the first place: because it's fun!

( So, without further ado, some of the beauteous bounties I'm grateful for...  )


Happy Thanksgiving, lovelies! What are you grateful for?

First I find $20 in front of Temple's train ticket booth. I use it to buy my ticket and proceed to listen to Aphex Twin on the way to the airport. I've been listening to drukqs since I was 17 and it isn't getting old yet. Then, at the security checkpoint, while I am struggling to remove my scarf, jacket and belt in a frenzy, I find a crumpled $5 under the table. Sweet molasses!
Then I find out that my flight is 2 hours delayed. :|
And I left my latest Netflix in the mailbox like a dope so I just get to sit here now. :|

All the holidays are coming up and frankly... the holidays really make me feel lonelier than ever and more anxious might I add since there is the whole pressure of going to parties and have big gatherings. =T Does anyone else feel this way too?

Today my two physics buddies were shocked when I told them I was 26. They're 20 and 21. That made me feel good, haha! I was starting to think I looked really old. Maybe it's just because I feel old.

i am listening to john mayer's battle studies... oh my... it's gorgeous. i've known i enjoyed his radio hits before but i've never actually listened to an entire album of his before this. i'm on my third time around, it makes me wanna paint. what a beautiful feeling.

Dorka, Ilona Jó and Ficko were found guilty and put to death on the spot. Dorka and Ilona had their fingernails ripped out before they were thrown into a fire, while Ficko, who was deemed less guilty, was beheaded before being consigned to the flames. A public scaffold was erected near the castle to show the public that justice had been done. Katarína Benická was sentenced to life imprisonment, as she only acted under the domination and bullying by the other women, as implied by recorded testimony.

D: I love how so much of history is like a horror movie. That shit mirrors life far more than we realize...

Elizabeth Bathory’s introduction to torture and sadism started early in her life with the first recorded incident being when she witnessed the death of a visiting gypsy accused of selling his children. Penalties for such a crime could be harsh, so after a night of torture in which his screams were heard throughout the castle, he was taken at dawn for his gruesome execution. This involved being sown into the belly of a freshly killed horse and left to die slowly and painfully with the procedure being witnessed by Elizabeth. Needless to say this made a lasting impression on Elizabeth and reinforced her already strongly held belief that lives of those under her were cheap.

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happy nineteenth birthday!